Big04 said it best. That's good advice
No, I am not sure if your use of language is the result of english not being your primary language. But the use of the word craving leads me to believe you might become addicted to steroids. You are still very young. Your endocrine system is still very very active. If you supplement your own hormone production with external anabolic steroids at this age you might permanently cripple your bodies hormone production.
Take your time. When you think of the best professional wrestlers who do you think of? Names like undertaker, hulk hogan, the rock come to mind. They were all in the sport for a relatively long time. You are going to need longevity in your body for the rest of your life.
My advice would be for you to take some more time to learn your body and how it responds. Take the time to perfect your diet and training. I know after 18 months of solid training i thought i knew everything, but so many times since then i have realized new and better ways to do things that give me great gains. Let yourself have that "maturing" time, then in a few years think about it again.
I gurantee that if you asked any professional BB out there about why they took steroids, they are most likely not gonna say that they were desperate and young. They will most likely say something around that they wanted to do something different and achieve a level of stature that others can't even dream of achieving. I would drop the whole impatient and looks is everything attitude and just live life normally. You have to put the mentality that Rome wasn't built in a day. If you take steroids, you'll look great but then you'll have to pay a heafty penalty in the end. I know you can do it and so does everyone else in Mecca if I were to speak for them. If I were you, I'd just hit those weights hard and take it one step at a time. You'll see the day when you look in the mirror and you see a huge mass of natural muscle, you'll be so freaking proud of yourself. Do your body a favor and take life as it is. Hope you chose the right way!!
With out an exceptional diet, exercise program and genetics then forget about it. Your wasting your time and money.
And BTW the next time some retard posts its because there on shit loads of gear. They should be banned because they obviously have no idea on the topic or how certain drugs function.
imo bein a good entertainer is more important in wrestling than ur actual body size, all of the guys are pretty big but the guys who truly succeed are the ones who bring more entertainment to the sport....just take time to refine ur wrestlin skills and hold off on the steroids until ur a little older and ur body has fully matured