Awesome log. I can't seem to find Havoc so I'm looking into taking Epistane in a month or two. Can you PM your daily dosages and when you will start your Nolva? I want to make sure I do this right. I'm not going to just start taking it without some research.
I will be the only one here telling you this, but fuck it.
Muscle dysmorphia is a mental disorder in which you become obsessed with the idea that you are not muscular enough. You may look to the other way when presented with this, but the fact remains that bodybuilding is all about this mental disorder.
Nobody in their right mind would want to look like Ronnie Coleman or Jay Cutler. They are just too big. It is not appealing in any way. I love bodybuilding because I get excited about the amazing amounts of effort they put in their work to look like that, but I would never want to be them.
I seriously recommend you to think if you want to get any bigger. I can see your size being a problem for most of girls right now. Woman like fit man, of course there are exceptions to the rule that love bodybuilders, but those are scarce. Most want a fit dude, with low fat.
Don't get bigger just because you want more power or just because. Think things through and then do what you want. Also, really consider that maybe the impulse you feel to be bigger is not something positive.
Those are my two cents. I just want to help. I really look up to you as effort goes. You are huge !! But if I let myself be honest, I wouldn't want to be as big as you.
With much luv and respect.
^ why the fuck are you even on a bodybuilding forum then? i mean seriously we all are familiar with the term muscle dysmorphia. you can spin bodybuilders in one of 2 ways:
*the spectator who feels these men have self image problems and they're mental disorder is that of excessive complusion to always be bigger.
*the never ending quest to improve yourself. you can always be better and bodybuilding is the constant pursuit of this.
you shouldn't be in this sport if what your're going for is female attention or social approval. you will never get the latter and most women who find bodybuilders attractive are fit themselves and are not the commonly found woman. if you classify bodybuilding as muscle dysmorphia that's fine, but you can and go join a men's fitness forum.
I'm with Duality all the way on this one. Who are you to tell be able to tell why someone is doing something. Are you a psychologist???? I could easily do the same thing and say that you just find that you yourself do not have the genetics, discipline, and raw power that braaq has and so you are disgusted with yourself and say "hes too big".
It figures your ass would have the name NeoSoviet. Same ideals as I mentioned earlier, communist want everyone to be alike for social harmony and they dont value freedom, instead they are afraid of the anxiety that can come with freedom. If Braaq were to quit training for fear of being afraid of being too big, then he'd be quitting something that he loves.
Neo-Soviet, based on your stats of weight and training and diet, it sounds like you aren't a bodybuilder. I mean that in the kindest way; there's nothing wrong with being fit and only fit. And I can see that you aren't literally saying that bodybuilding is muscle dysmorphia(even though I deal with it everyday and can hardly enjoy bb because of it). I just don't see what you mean abou Braaq being "too big." Braaq is a big mofo and most of us hope to reach that physique in the next 5 years. However, I think that with Braaq's height and nutrition, he will be able to reach 245ish naturally(1 or 2 cycles of havoc aint countin')and maybe even maintain a lower bodyfat, even though he is pretty lean now. I think after 2 years of training for you though , Neo, if you are implying that bb is a scheme for women(chicks) , then why don't you get into it, because I can sense a little jealousy in that Braaq is most likely a PIMP. With respect, I just had to debate also. Good day fellas.